I have a little something to share 🌈
For a while I have been contemplating what I would like to do for a career. I told myself that this would be the year I focused on me. I know my heart lies with helping children with additional needs. So I knew my career has to be based around this.
At school I found learning hard, especially maths. My brain has never retained numbers and I also struggled to concentrate and was forever talking 😶. I also struggled with exams and the pressure, but the teachers use to think I was acting that way just to escape doing it.
And I was always so afraid to keep saying I didn’t understand, because others around me use to find it easier whilst I use to just really struggle in silence and let my personality overshadow my struggles. But because I was good in other aspects of my learning, they also kinda just brushed aside my struggles with maths and told my parents, I could do better if I concentrated more.
But if I am to help children I knew I needed to retake my GCSE in maths, so that I can acquire the right level to start training and this meant facing my fear.
So yesterday I had an interview with the college about relearning maths, with the aim to retake my GCSE. In the morning Harry wrote me a good luck card and also some maths questions they may ask me. He told me he was proud of me for doing this, especially as he knew how nervous I was. I did have to do a short math assessment and afterwards I did have a little cry. It was those feelings from school that came flooding back and how the words & numbers on the page just seem to merge into one and how much pressure I put on myself. Somethings never go away even as an adult.
The tutors were lovely and assured me things will be different now I’m an adult, and adaptations can be made to help me. But I felt proud of myself that I stepped into doing something I fear the most. Which just reminded me how some of the children feel each day going to school. I start my learning in September, and I just wanted to say that despite what teaching may of been like years ago don’t let it put you off relearning today. ❤️🌈