Maths exam update

Hello everyone 🌈

How are we all?

Yesterday I had my level 2 maths exam, it was very hard and draining. I did get upset again after, as some of the questions I just didn’t know what they were expecting of me to do. So I know that they weren’t answered right. 😞 To much text confuses me.

I’m thankful I had my additional time, because I wouldn’t of even got to the last 3 questions without it.

The extra 20 minutes means it still took me 1 hour 40 to complete 15 questions.

Which I think when you see it like that, maybe understand the issues I have been having.

I also feel if I haven’t passed it, I do not know if I could honestly put myself through it again. It’s really hard to explain the fear of numbers I have, but also how maths has an overall effect on my body. I knew embracing my fear would have a toll, but not quite as much as I had expected.

Since I started relearning my maths last year (September). I have been soo tired and drained along with bad headaches. I haven’t really spoke much about these issues as I felt people may think it’s an exaggeration.

But I can assure you it isn’t, I have noticed in the half terms how I don’t feel that way because I am not at college then. But once I go back, I feel like all life has been sucked out of me.

I’ve had to teach myself a way of doing maths, lots of highlighting and notes in my own words. Which means I haven’t been able to really bounce off others learning, because mine is a different way of doing things.

But still when presented with a simple addition question, I cannot do it without using my fingers. Which is also the same for subtraction too.

I know it’s been beneficial for both kids to see my learning journey, and how hard it has been for me. Because not everyone clicks with learning and I know it’s important for them to know it’s ok if you have to go back and learn again. But even as an adult it doesn’t mean it’s going to be easy.

I now have the dreaded wait to see if I have passed. Which I don’t know how long that will take either 😞.

If by some miracle I have passed, then I know that’s the last time me and maths will come face to face again. I’ll be contented knowing I faced the fear and got the grade I needed. ❤️🌈